MADISON thing

My Mother is Truly of a Negative Nature:

*WARNING* EXTREMELY NEGATIVE "mother" BASHING!

Times haven't changed, they never will, and I truly mean NEVER!

My mother will never change, either. Why is there a seeming reluctance towards everything I do around her, EVERY god damn thing I do, she is against, she tears me apart into little pieces, paints a portrait of despair, and abuses my logical standpoint.

I should read "Children of Abusive Parents." Or "Children of the Abused!"

She is disgusted with everything I do, and I am disgusted with everything she does. We have tried to salvage our relationship, but the dynamics never work, they become elusive. She ignores the fact that I even exist, and she feels the need to use me as a household slave. Just think, Cinderella. She accuses me of being "Lazy" and sure I am, "coughs with slight disparity." She has no self worth, and hates "me" as and individual. But what? WHAT??? What can I possibly do to make us compatible, to make us react positively together, even the smallest thing (without words or actions) becomes hell, it becomes a labyrinth of wrenching pain and stress!  "She is truly of a negative nature." She is my mother, and I do show her respect, but she is blind! BLIND, to anything I do with positive connotations, she feeds of my insecurities, and she feeds off if anything I do negatively!

"A sudden wave of stress comes over my entire body!"

Whenever I hear her voice, a sudden wave of stress comes over my entire body! I become nauseous and tend to cry uncontrollably. It hurts me; it stresses me out, every little thing she does back-fires. And yes I am to blame; this entire dilemma is on my behalf. I am truly the child of Satan, (in her eyes!) I have always been negative towards her, we are like polar opposites, she embodies the positive, of course!? I hope!? It is even proven that Gemini's (me) and Virgo's (her) are not compatible! And we are not, we simply bite at each other's spines!

"May something have salvage over her soul, that is all I ask!"

♥ MADISONthing 2009